I was feeling a myriad of emotions. I was feeling sad, scared, and angry. I didn’t know what to do with these emotions all at once.
You’ve been found guilty by your own consciousness, and you’ll be facing a life sentence in your own mind unless you can prove yourself to be innocent.
There is no shame in admitting that we, as humans, do not understand our emotions and do not have the tools to control them at all times. Sometimes, we need to call in for back up; call for someone who has spent many years trying to understand why our minds process these types of situations these ways.
There are people want to help you. Whether you know it or not, someone out there values your life and your recovery. You just have to see that you are valuable too.
How can I be happy with everything else going on too?
It feels like I’m basically the Energizer bunny driving around the mountain with no fog lights on. I have all of the energy, but my body can’t utilize it.
I don’t manage things well, and everything seems to be spiraling out of my control; not following the path that I want it to follow. But maybe that’s okay.
I feel like I look sick again. Oh wait. I never stopped being sick in the first place.