Why would I make it worse when I don’t know why I want to be on the outside anyway?
And I can’t get it back. It’s all gone.
SOS, God. I’m drowning. I can’t breathe.
Won’t you please part the sea for me?
I’m sick of being sick
I’m tired of being sad
It’s really hard to fight when all I’ve known is feeling bad
But it’s okay. I’m getting help.
Even if I don’t feel like I need it quite yet.
These relationships are what made going to school worthwhile for me…now, it’s like it never happened.
I was feeling a myriad of emotions. I was feeling sad, scared, and angry. I didn’t know what to do with these emotions all at once.
You’ve been found guilty by your own consciousness, and you’ll be facing a life sentence in your own mind unless you can prove yourself to be innocent.
“You’re a catch twenty-two. Win or lose I’m screwed.”
There is no shame in admitting that we, as humans, do not understand our emotions and do not have the tools to control them at all times. Sometimes, we need to call in for back up; call for someone who has spent many years trying to understand why our minds process these types of situations these ways.