Why would I make it worse when I don’t know why I want to be on the outside anyway?
And I can’t get it back. It’s all gone.
I’m sick of being sick
I’m tired of being sad
It’s really hard to fight when all I’ve known is feeling bad
But it’s okay. I’m getting help.
Even if I don’t feel like I need it quite yet.
I just can’t right now.
Understanding my family history has allowed me to tap into this new piece of my identity and I couldn’t be prouder of it.
7. no one tries to understand how crappy I’m genuinely feeling on any given day
I don’t understand.
I will never be able to understand.
But at what point do we all acknowledge that we can express our emotions peacefully because we are all humans?
The second I walked into my door at 4:54pm, I started crying and immediately poured myself a whisky iced tea – a drink that I never even finished.
I just wish everything weren’t based around bureaucracy and capitalism.
I’ve been thinking about what I believe in lately.
The reality is that I still don’t quite know.